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Happy Tuesday peeps! Been through quite a hard time last week. Took back all the exam papers and none of them literally reached my heart's content. I don't know. I tried so hard, and yes, I tried the hardest for this time including the exams when I was Junior 1 and 2. I studied so much I just couldn't find a better way to improve. Well, there is a slight improvement, but the ones which dropped have dropped drastically. I kept whispering to myself "Emily, your hardwork will be made up for all the discomforts". Everything ended up like a blank piece of paper. You wouldn't want to imagine how much the wounds on my maimed fragile heart have doubled and trebled. I'm yearning for a place which is just a ticket to me. A place with no worries but glee beyond boundaries.

On Saturday which is within the exam weeks, I went to my cousin brother's wedding lunch. I didn't want to go 'cos I had so many subjects untouched, like Geography and Sejarah. But it was something like my cousin brother's once-in-a-lifetime thing, so I went. Plus, he stays in Singapore and I rarely get to see him here. I brought some books and studied a few pages. was sort of distracted by my cousin sister as she couldn't stop annoying me. Also, some of my relatives who sat pretty far away from my seat asked my mum why didn't I lift up my head but kept looking downwards. They didn't know there were books on my lap. They thought I was moody or sorts. LOL. Then after the wedding lunch, they came and coax me that learning how to chill is even important than studying so hardly. That I have to agree with them. I was real nerdy there. Some of the strangers looked at me with the 'omg that girl is peculiar' eye contacts. Wanted to stop studying but I really had no ample time. The spiritual enforcement, yes it was.

To reflect on it, the wedding lunch wasn't that bad. The food was okay. Nothing special. But I got to meet my relatives who I've met when I was merely 3 from America. As usual, my cousin sister (shuni) sang on the stage with my another cousin sister who we call her the secretary of ShuNi. Their singing can damage my eardrums man. Sorry to insult, but they insisted singing songs which were totally out of their voice range. Nothing much about the wedding lunch. Recalling it just makes me blame on it for occupying so much of my revision time hah. Photos speak it all. Enjoy!


On the last day of exams, me, yTeng, zSan and zYuan headed to Sunway Pyramid right after the KH paper. Gillian didn't get to go 'cos her mum sort of grounded her. She'll be only freed off after our JUEC exam, which is gonna be a long long time. I know I'll be very disrespectful to her mum if I backstab her here but I still wanna say things about her. Firstly, does she know what is the exact definition of teenagers? Teenagers are meant to be given an appropriate life of a teenager, we call it a teenage life. A teenage life consists of so many varieties like playing truant every day with bad juveniles OR viewing the situation with positive perspectives, studying and enjoying life with friends. Does she think that her very own daughter should be stated in the group of playing truant every day, no? Her daughter needs a life; deserves a life; wants a life. She thinks that life without outings and conducive rules are what a teenager needs to have a brighter future. Does she think so this way. Then she's so wrong. She wants her daughter to quit athletics when she already knew very well that she has the talent and she performed so well showing such motivated aptitude. Please, as a friend, I don't care whether you're gonna scream at her for having a friend LIKE ME, but I would like to cordially tell you that, loving a child, is not like this. Give her, a LIFE. End.

Must be bored with all the craps and blabbering, but I myself did enjoy the typing haha. Okay. We wanted to watch a HongKong comedy but ended up watching another comedy about the racism between different religions. Although there were so many obscene scenes and so many swear words used, we learned quite a few facts regarding Jews and Islams from the movie. Oh yea, I forgot to mention about the name of the movie haha. It's 'Infidel'. It's a so-so movie. Can't say it's good, can't say it's bad too. Maybe a rating of 3/5 will do. Before the movie, we had lunch in a ramen restaurant. Was chatting and gossiping. Had a real fun time with them. Okay, it's turn for the pictures to show off!

Wanted to mention about another very traumatic thing I knew few days back. Seems like I'm lack of time 'cos I have some stuffs for me to finish up right now. I shall talk about it the next time I update hey? Gonna get back my Biology paper and English essay tomorrow. Firstly, teacher said the points in my essay which should be relevant to the importance of saving the earth are kind of, hidden in the mist. Meaning the points are not written clear enough. To exaggerate it, I consider my essay out of topic even though it's not. Also, teacher said my summary is lacking one more point because I joined two points in a sentence. In short, I flunked my essay paper. Biology. One word and you can get the picture: FAILED. Okay, goodnight.

I was waiting for you

Outside a dilapidated empty house

Located in an unknown suburb.

You never knew

How picturesque your back is to me

How much I wanna make a difference.

I know I'm gonna get through,

Albeit rather tough.

Just 'cos you would be there.

But you weren't.

Why,

Why didn't you turn back?

xoxo