Em's Feverish Blossom: May 2012

WOOHOO Exam's officially over! The last paper was accounts and I'm definitely not hoping for a good result for it as I didn't really study for accounts the day before. To be frank, I was initially pretty disappointed in myself as I totally did not even bother to study for school's mid-year exam and it's actually much more important than the 1st monthly test we had in March. It's either I was being too laid back without the stress or I've totally lost hope and confidence. However, I find life like this much easier and happier. To recall what I went through for the past few years, the stress, the mountains and mountains of books, the never-computed numbers and dot dot dots would just fly into my mind. Like what my dad said just now, "You don't wait for people to appease you. You search for your happiness". That's right. You do whatever you like/want to achieve your heart's content and joviality. At least for now, I learn to do whatever I feel like it, as long as I, am HAPPY. Despite the fact that the really bad and horrifying consequences are completely neglected, life, is indeed more sensational and splendid.

Oh not to forget, we are having the 2-month holiday and I have so many things to do that I can't get myself to get things organized. So, let me talk about the last day of school (last day of exam as well) before school holidays started. LingHui, YingYing, Joyce and I went to an Italian restaurant just behind our school. The foods were incredibly mouthwatering and affordable. We merely had to pay RM12 for one whole set of wonderful lunch which included spaghetti bolognese, mushroom soup, ice-cream, beverage and focaccia bread! The atmosphere was really heart soothing and the music they played was my all time favourite! I had really great time with 3 of them. Without them, I might hate school as much as I hate rats :D !

Recently, the thought that my violin class would come to an end in less than one month's time is making me extremely frustrated and irritated. I don't want to quit and to not be frequently approaching the beautiful (ahem) instrument that somehow at this moment, is no longer a typical musical instrument to me. There is an indescribable development between this beautiful instrument and I. Eleven years, is indeed a long journey. From pain, to hatred; From tears of failure, to tears of joy, or success. Plus, the teacher who has always been with me since the unforgettable day when I first stepped into the academy with curiosity and fear, wondering what was going to happen next (yeap, I was merely 5 years old), left a tangled knot in me, leaving me at the crossroad deciding whether to continue or not. She was the one who welcomed me with love, and brought me to the world of music. From time to time, the massive smile upon her face has never changed, until now, it is STILL the power that brings me to know her deeper. The fact that I'll most probably be completely down on the last day of class simply reminds me of the last day of piano class with my ex-teacher. This, is life. Every string that brings us towards each other will eventually break into two parts, and there is where we meet the most inescapable separations.

The night to remember - The Concerto Night had ended with a loud applause. It was definitely the most successful and fun concert we had after so many years! I had so much fun during practices and also during the performances on the stage! Seeing how the concert had ended with the supportive audience having their feet on the ground, standing up tall and cheering with recognition, we felt that those hours and hours of practices were totally worth it. I can't wait for our next concert 'cos I'm seeking for the kind of feeling that I can never achieve other than being a part of the united musical family :) .