:: IT'S GONNA BE YOU ::

Hellooooo people! I feel awesome right now because today's FRIDAY! Friday is the best day in a week as school dismisses early, Saturday is no longer a school day for me and I get to flex my muscles in the evening during yoga class! And see, I'm blogging just in front of the windows in my bedroom and I can see the beautiful scenery over here, OH I see Taylors Lakeside Campus too! This is fantastic, I JUST LOVE FRIDAY TO THE MAX :) . Plus, tomorrow's violin class is CANCELLED (best damn thing ever) and tomorrow is time for my appointment with the dentist, which means I GET TO CHOOSE ANOTHER AWESOME COLOUR FOR MY BRACES, teehee.

Yesterday, I skipped school and went for KC sports day (again? Yes, again). Initially, I decided not to go back because I rarely skip school and skipping school sounds like burning myself in a flame to me. But on Wednesday, I was so sick of going to school, so I decided to go back and have fun with them AGAIN (also consoling myself that it's just one day, JUST ONE DAY). Unfortunately, it has become an addiction to me. I feel like skipping school every day after my second attempt of skipping school. I've changed so much :( . However, I'm really thankful that my parents are being really considerate recently. They understand how much I missed my friends from KC. Hence, they never stop me from meeting up with them.

Kay, back to the topic. When we we reached there, we had to walk from the opposite side of the place where we should be seated, which was like an extremely long diameter of an oval. We were saying how we were only walking a very smart part of it and we already felt really tired. Later when all of them reached, it started to drizzle but the students of senior 3 were still performing in the rain. Their performance was awesome and I can't wait for our batch to perform (even though I'm not a part of them who are performing but isn't it just FUN watching your friends performing for the very last year of high school life? ).

Then, the competitions started. Some of them were doing Advance Maths so me, Wendy, JiaWen, KahWai, Joelle, Reika, NiTing, HoYan, SoonYin and KerXin ditched them and had our typical 'French Revolution Meeting' with plenty of FOOOOD at another part of the stadium. We talked and laughed a lot, then we started snapping crazy photos together. Oh and not to forget, we even recorded a video of us dancing like delirious people :D . I had SO MUCH FUN 'cos it's been such a LONG TIME since I ever laughed 'till I had to force myself to stop 'cos my tummy ached so badly.

At around 10.30pm, JiaWen's mom fetched JiaWen, JiaWei, HoYan, Wendy, ZhuanYuan, ZhiSan and I to her house. Our plan was to watch Beauty & the Beast with her 3D TV but then we were having too much fun taking photos with her brand new instant camera. It sure was tiring 'cos the park was like the favourite habitat of peculiar mosquitoes, humongous red ants and unknown bugs. Wendy had so many mosquito bites that it sort of freaked me out. We took a lot of photos and they were all beautiful memories that I will never ever forget. The memories are carved in my mind, my heart and my senses so, tell me how can I ever toss this part of memory to somewhere else? It will be even better if RueChien, YiTeng and others were in the photos too :) . .

By the way, I am currently very excited about the Penang trip in June. Not all of them will be going 'cos they will be having a 'Science Camp' in school so yea... We will be staying in an apartment and I'm craving for BARBEQUE now :D . Before that, I shall be looking forward to the Concerto Night on this coming Sunday! I hope tomorrow's practice will be a perfect and successful one! Will be updating about the concert in my next entry. Stay tuned ;) !

Intense love does not measure,

it just gives.

xoxo

:: PARTY ROCK ANTHEM ::

Phew~ Finally I get to sit down and blog about what happened so far. My week was totally awesome! It sure was a tiring week but I felt that everything was worth it and I definitely did not regret a single thing. Today is a a Hindu festival and my school is off. It's weird how other schools have no holiday for this particular festival. My parents and friends are saying that the school is giving us too many extra holidays. Quite true to me 'cos last time in KuenCheng, it's already a big relief for us when we were given a break on Saturday. But most of the time, we would have to go to school from Monday to Saturday and holidays for us were like once in a blue moon thing. Now this explains why people say students and teachers from Chinese independent schools are so diligent :D , heh. Not quite exact on me though ;( .

On Monday, the 'South Australia Youth Orchestra' came to our school to perform. The musical concert was very nice. At first when Mr. Chew told us about the musical concert during the assembly, I was happy because we got to skip classes. Surprisingly, the concert was something like an orchestra and ensemble but there were very few violinists. They started off with 2 choir performances and Tharchanaa and I loved the performances SO MUCH! They sounded really good and synchronized together and we wanted more choir performances so badly :( . Later, the orchestra performed 'Somewhere out there', then followed by jazzes which were only performed by percussion, woodwind players and a keyboardist. After 3 or 4 orchestra performances, 5 very awesome vocalists performed with the accompaniment of violin quartets. Lastly, they jammed and when they were about to end the concert, we yelled for an encore, so they jammed 2 more songs and we were totally hyped up, heh. In short, the musical concert was a blast and I really loved it :) .

I got the ticket for Jaslyn on Saturday and it's with no doubt, well-designed and attractive. The tickets are sponsored by an association in Kiwanis. I genuinely hope you all will be able to make it for our Concerto Night on the 22nd of April. We have put in a lot of hard work and I'm pretty sure all of you will enjoy the music and feel the love we convey through music. Some people will think it's going to be like any other typical boring classical musical concerts but the pieces we are going to perform are some of the exciting songs by Mendelssohn, Vivaldi, Mozart and a medley of Pirates of the Caribbean! If interested, contact me anytime and I'll get you the ticket(s) as soon as possible! Please consider :) .

On Wednesday, I went to Wendy's house after I bathed after coming back home from school. HanYin, JiaWen and KahWai went too. We couldn't stop talking LOUDLY, laughing LOUDLY, being hyper LOUDLY and I ended up having sore throat when my dad went to fetch me back. For dinner, we ordered MCD and it was my first time eating fish fillet burger. It tasted pretty good! I thought it would be extremely oily and fattening 'cos I personally don't really like eating burgers. I so need to eat it again someday! When we were halfway talking in the living room, her mom came back from Taiwan and her relatives from Alor Setar came too. Hence, we had to go to Wendy's room and try to not make so much noise. Sighs, I really hope I get to go to her house with them every night :( .

On Wednesday, it was our agong installation sooooo..... IT'S A PUBLIC HOLIDAY! I went to IOI Boulevard with ZhiSan, YiTeng and JieXi to help out with their computer project. Their project is something like a few groups divided and they have to make a video, flash or whatsoever promoting something. I can't really blog about it yet 'cos they say I can only blog about it after they have presented their project. We took a lot of photos and I enjoyed myself so much! After that, we went to Ochado and I ordered oreo chocolate. Trust me, Ochado is soooo many times better than Chatime and I seriously DON'T GET why people can get so obsessed with Chatime. Chatime, is terrible. We talked about the Penang trip in June that I will be going to with KC school orchestra, which made me feel hyper :D . Sadly on that same day, tragedies striked in Indonesia. Earthquake, then tsunami. -Longggg whine- what is wrong with the earth? While the friends and I were happily having fun, the people in Indonesia were struggling to survive. I'm so tired of listening to the disasters in other countries but we can't really do a thing that is effective enough to stop everything.

On Thursday, I skipped school and went for KC Sports Day (preliminary) which was held in Stadium Petaling Jaya. I had to sneak in by pretending as a KC student 'cos outsiders are only allowed to attend for the finals on next Tuesday. I had no choice but to wear my KC PE attire AND .... to tie my hair up into a bun. I didn't know how to, so Shuqi helped me in the van. I looked like a nanny but oh well, for my friends' sake, I DID IT OBLIGINGLY. Everyone was so shocked when they saw me at the stadium. I lied to some of them that I transferred back and they actually believed. Well, how I wish what I was saying was true :'( . When I reached, I talked to ZhiSan, LingYi, ZhiQian and CheahQi. We were talking about school societies and some of the new teachers in KC.

When the gate was opened, I went in with Sam and seriously, HE'S SO TALL :DD ! I went in and saw YiTeng and others. The stadium was so TERRIBLE I don't know how am I going to describe it. It's dirty, small and lousy. I don't get why the school can be banned by Stadium Bukit Jalil -.- . How I wish our Sports Day is always in Stadium Bukit Jalil every year so we won't have to suffer in those small and terrible stadiums. Plus, Sri KL's Sports Day is in the same stadium OH DANG. Forget about how terrible it is. We took photos and we were so hyper that the junior prefects came to lecture us. I practically spent all my time over there eating and chatting. It sounded boring but I had so much fun I just didn't feel like leaving. I felt like I was a part of KC again :D . However, the bun was very troublesome. I felt like it would fall off in no time. Also, it was good to be able to hear the discipline teacher's voice again!

At 1pm, me, YiTeng, HoYan, JiaWen, Wendy, Shuqi, ZhiSan and Reika went to IOI mall for DARK FLIGHT. When we were about to enter the cinema, I had the urge to turn back 'cos I was extremely afraid of watching horror movies. Wendy sat next to me and somehow I think I was more steady 'cos her legs were shivering, she was covering her eyes with YiTeng's pinafore and she didn't even drink her coke. At least I ate my sweet corn and pop corn XD ! The movie wasn't as scary as expected. The trailer looked scarier though :D .

This week, I had so much fun and I guess it's time for me to really settle down now. I have to start doing my homeworks and my projects. Getting really exhausted now. Goodnight peeps ;) !

In three words I can sum up everything

that I've learnt about life:

"it goes on"

xoxo

:: BLOW YOUR MIND ::

Hey peeps! Tomorrow's Good Friday and it's a holiday for my school so yea, I'm here to blog and my homeworks are like, totally ditched ;) . So, today was our big day 'cos we had drama preliminary round during the last period. We were practising profusely from the 1st period and good thing was that, the teachers were so considerate that they were willing enough to sacrifice their period for us to practise. The theme for this year is 'Imagination'. I like the theme and our story is awesome. It's written by LingHui and even if we don't win, she is still the one who contributed the most. She's done more than what she should and hell yeah she's awesome like that :D !

The act was fine but Miss Alexis said we seemed to be rushing through everything, so it looked pretty chaotic at times. I personally think it's fine, though. Ryan acted very naturally and his facial expressions were really good, haha. TzeSheng could be a very bitchy diva and if he was born to be a little taller (sorry to be sarcastic, heh), I'm sure he's perfect to take Jack's role (Christian, the main male character). Crystal sang "I'm beautiful" by Christina Arguilera during her opera show in the act and it was hilarious. She had to move her body and do some seducing actions and I really have to give her a big thumbs-up, BRAVO! In short, I'm quite confident that we are able to make it to the final match which will be held in the auditorium even though our ending was kind of ruined. Here's a picture I stole from Joyce on Facebook :) .

So, how's life recently? I'm trying my utmost to accept the fact that I am no longer a KC-ian and life goes on come what may. I so so so need to look at the positive sides. There will be many other tough challenges in the future and I have to start training up myself to adapt to the environment. No point thinking of going back, rewinding everything when it is freakin' impossible to go back, right? I'm really thankful to have my friends around when I needed to tell all of my discomfort, when I needed someone to be by my side, when I needed someone to make me feel better. You all rock. We knock down the obstacles together, and yes, we always do. Although I'm no longer studying together with you all, I'm still spiritually a part of KC and I feel the love, the care, the warmth from every single one of you. Kay, this is making me down 'cos I'm currently listening to 'Maybe' by Yiruma. I shall, stop.

Last Wednesday, red house members went for the lake run. Girls from class 2 had to finish the run within 7 minutes to gain 2 marks for the house. I felt guilty for skipping cross country run and 2 marks were deducted just because of my absence. Well, I wasn't the only one who skipped it but 2 marks are still marks. I should at least contribute some marks for the house even though I really hate to be in red house. I didn't have confidence to qualify at all but I told myself JUST KEEP ON RUNNING AND DON'T STOP. THINK OF THE MANTRA YOU LEARNED IN YOGA and dang, I was really thinking of the mantra (babanam, kevanam) during the run and surprisingly, it managed to calm me down a little. While I was gasping for air, while I felt like I would die of cardiac arrest in no time, while my legs were burning and they kept telling me to stop running, I PUSHED MYSELF and... I QUALIFIED!! Holey, I felt superbly great that words just can't describe. I can't run and my stamina sucks. Some people may think that qualifying the lake run is a piece of cake but to me, it is a piece of advance maths paper, HAHA.

Last Saturday, I had supper with HanYin and JieXi at IOI Boulevard and I had sooooo much fun just talking, talking and talking with them. We were talking so much that when it was 11.30pm, we were so shocked 'cos we thought it was only 10pm -.- . I love listening to how JieXi told us about the stress and all 'cos it made me reminisce how we've gone through all the stress together last year, especially the hard times we had for months before JUEC. I also enjoyed listening to HanYin telling us about how awesome it is to be in Catholic. Yea I've got to admit that I was jealous of both of them. One has a laid-back life and not being pressurized by the stress whereas one has a stressed up life which I really want right now. I was telling them how 'Banana' are the people in my school and they just couldn't stop laughing. We had supper at Zen, a new dessert restaurant next to Snowflakes. The desserts were yummy and the humongous chocolate banana toast we shared was simply mouthwatering! I'm looking forward to seeing more and MORE restaurants like this opening in IOI boulevard. It's such an awesome place to hang out with awesome friends ;) .

You can close the windows and darken your room,

and you can open the windows and let light in.

It is a matter of choice.

Your mind is your room.

Do you darken it

or

fill it with light?

xoxo

:: HAVE YOU EVER WONDERED ::

What's up people! I just came back from yoga class and I'm currently pretty energetic 'cos teacher taught us a posture which could make more blood flow into our brain, so yea, guess I should just update my blog right now. I was actually planning to finish up my homeworks by tonight. Unfortunately, I got stuck halfway when I was doing my Addmaths so I suppose I'll finish them tomorrow :) . Typical Emily.

Tomorrow is my school's Cross Country Run at Taman Botani Negara in Shah Alam and it's friggin' compulsory. We had Cross Country Trial on Wednesday and it was darn exhausting! The slopes, the downhills and all were undoubtedly torturing. I should have skipped the trial with Privitaa so I wouldn't have wasted so much energy and ended up being dizzy and famished. Plus, I have extreme muscle pain ALL OVER MY BODY. It wasn't easy to finish the run even though it was merely 5km of distance. Oh I suddenly remembered how proud I was to finish last year's Chinese independent schools' annual jogathon which was 10km long. Oh I feel successful :) . Kay, back to the topic. I'm skipping the run tomorrow and at first, I was quite worried of what kind of excuses should I tell if my house master, Puan Lily, asks me about it. Then, when school was dismissed just now, I received a message from Dentist Woon and she said I have an appointment with her in the morning tomorrow. Holy I felt indescribably great!

Last week, I went to Midvalley with Juppie Jup :) . We practically spent our time chatting, gossiping and EATING. We seriously spent a lot on FOOD but it was okay. I felt better to spend more money on FOOD than clothes and all. Speaking about food, I just remembered my bestest food mate/childhood friend, Suanne, who left for Australia on Monday. I feel really bad as I didn't get to hang out with her before she left. I knew her when I was 3 and we know each other just way too well. I can't imagine my life without her being in Malaysia for the next few months and I can only meet her when she comes back for a summer break in December. A few months sound like centuries to me. This is simply miserable and depressing :( .

Suanne left, and who is the next one? Tharchanaa. She's my best friend in Sri KL and I doubt she's the sole person who understands me best. She can totally understand how I feel being in Sri KL and I'm pretty sure no one has the same kind of feeling, except for Tharchanaa. She's leaving the school after the first term and I don't think I could survive in this damn school without her. At least for now, I could spend time with her before school starts and during break time even though we're in different classes. After the first term, I might not be looking forward to having recess anymore as she will not be around and I'll definitely feel more than plain lifeless.

I thought I could keep this issue in myself but I really needed to spill out everything. I know, I was the one who made the decision to leave Kuen Cheng. I have to admit that I hated the school and I wanted to leave under any circumstances. I thought leaving the school would be the best option and life would have a big awesome twist after I left. Unfortunately, everything has become worse after the worst. People ask me how do I feel being in Sri KL. Honestly, I always feel like not responding but normally I will say 'It's okay'. Frankly speaking, it's worse than HELL. Why do I hate it? I don't know, I JUST HATE IT. I don't even feel like going to school anymore. I feel like rotting at home and do nothing or if I were in school, I would be sleeping until I get BORED of sleeping. Or maybe, I WOULD RATHER HOMESCHOOLING than going to that darn school. I know everything's too late and I deserve to be in such condition as I was stubborn and naive. I didn't want to listen and I have always thought that I was right. Finally, I guess this is what all of you are curious of... Yes, I regretted leaving.

After so many weeks of hesitation and worries, I eventually summoned up my courage to ask my parents about returning. But as expected, they refused. I have never felt so useless and dumb before. Some of you in Kuen Cheng might think I'm crazy because over there, I will have to catch up with their Advance Maths, Physics, Bio and Chemistry which we as typical KBSM students will only get the chance to study these in University. Like what Tharchanaa said, 'You can share your problems on stress with your friends but you just can't share your problems on friendships with stress'. True and precise enough.

I'm a disappointment to my parents. I'm sorry and I know a thousand or a million of apologies are already nothing to them. They probably think that I'm making fun of them. Transferring out, then wanting to transfer back. I can't blame on anyone 'cos it's my fault. Guess I will have to be stuck in this school for 2 more years. I totally agree with what Miss Serene said, 'Once you got used to the stress, environment and the extremely strict rules in KC, you belong to KC and if you were to leave, it's like half your heart is being taken away'. Whoever is considering to transfer out, PLEASE, be blessed and don't end up like me, feeling regretful over all the stupid things I've done. Whoever is considering to get in, PLEASE, study hard for the entrance exam and you'll definitely thank the school for pushing you crazily and you can never find a school that could make you more of an all-rounded and organized person. Kuen Cheng is like home to me, but it WAS hell to me. What has gone wrong in me, seriously?

I wonder if YiLing is doing great in Sri Garden. Hub, how are you?

Can I leave it all behind?

'Cause I can't turn back.

xoxo